OnlY- I lost you guys

my dear friends

I really lost you

I dont know what can I do

this is first time I realise that I am so useless

this is first time that I hate myself

this is first time my world is destroyed

this is first time I lost confidence

this is first time I dont know what I can believe in the future

I AM THE LOSER!! SUPER BIG IDIOT!!!!!

I FAILE TO DO EVERYTHING!!!!

such as my beloved friendship , family , studying and love

I have lost what I have had!!!!!!

tell me ! PLEASE TELL ME!!!! tell me this is a dream !!!!!

WAKE ME UP !!! PLEASE !!!!!!